Mix feeling

I dunno how to describe but i just want to walk away from this life. I cannot trust anymore so it will be no use at all. What is love without the trust? I will just follow the flow where the steps will lead me to. 

drowning...

 So many things that i would achieve in life. But i always belief The Almighty had a better plan for me. Maybe if i proceed with the other way, i would not have what i have today. I might be working somewhere in middle east but i may not have a savings like what i already had today. Tell me about the temptations and all the luxury goods temptation. Like what i always told myself "its a sin if im not buying it" lol! i dont know if that phrase even really exist in real life situation.

This will be a good year to generate more income to those working abroad as the myr currency is really low and if u change the money u will get more. I try my best not to fall into any of the temptations because i know all of that always can wait. I wanted to lead a very simple life. read:not stuck with any financial loan, have ample savings for rainy days and can do and can eat what i want  in life.I dont want to be like certain people , flashing their branded goods at all times but in reality no savings no nothing but debt. its not that i never have any indeed im a big fan of louis vuitton, dior and burberry but i spend wisely. I always bought those from outlets shopping spree whereby the markdown of the price is alottt! except for lv hahahah i need to save some money for it. i cannot digest when people want to borrow others money just because they want to fullfill what they want in life. come on. hey! if others can save the money and spend wisely why cant you. people already gave you all the priviledges.U cannot depends on people's courtesy at all times. what i noticed  this kind of people always talk bad about others when people never fulfilled what they want. ey hello!!? thats their money not yours and they are also burden with their financial problem. i once asked this lady, "if u re in their shoes can you do the same? " dangggggg she cant answer me and her facial expression changed. well, you should place yourselves in other's condition then u will be able to understand people.yes that person might be filthy rich to your eyes but they might want to save the money or they might have a lot of commitments. the money is mean for themselves its not for u. 

Anyway, there s alot of things going on in my life that i cannot spill it here. im literrally stucked here forever. i always become the punching bag, a saviour when other's in need and tossed me in the bin when they re not in need. Morale of the story, dont sacrifice so much to others , they will not appreaciate it but they will talk bad about you instead. especially families. 

the fallen

i just cant trust anyone anymore.one by one betray my trust. 

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Xxxxxxxx

i just cant trust anymore.

projek membuat buttermilk bun

aku kalau balik kampung mesti membeli bun buttermilk ni. tersangatlah famous di kuching benda ni sbb chinese pun secret recipe. so aku pun google la recipe so marilah kita membuat di cuti chinese new year ni.. 

ni mcm normal bun la dough dia ni cuma ada water roux mixture yg kengkonon akan bagi dia rs fluffy.. biarkan for 30-45 mins kasi dia proif pastu baru bole letak inti.

ni inti buttermilk dia oh tak sabarnya nak buat and bakar. pakcik don suka bebenor dgn roti and pastries. 

ni bila dah susun dalam tray.. nervous on aku punya first try ni

tgh bakar dalam oven toster huhu pandai sangat terus mengeras macam scones

dah menguning sedikit

inti mcm sedikit kurang manis and terlebih tepung.. pastu kulit keras ibarat scones.. hmm percubaan pertama katako.. almost jadi lah cuma mmg nak kene pakai oven betul2 boleh la nanti dah tauk apa nak buat rupa mmg dh ada tapi kelembutan fluffy nya tu nan hado.. huwaaa takpe theres a room for improvement gitu.. baiklah sampai jumpa lagi hokeh

Jealousy

Tajuk kita hari ini.. Kekadang aku tak paham kenapa org nak jeles tak tentu pasal dengan something yg dia tak tahu. Aku bagi contoh rozita che wan. Dia tak mintak duit org. Apa dia nak buat dia punya suka kot. Aku takdenye nak comment apa2 pun kalau org post apa2 sbb aku enjoy watching org punya life sbb kalau kita kat tempat dia kita pun maybe akan biat benda yg sama kot. Contoh nya kalau kita ada duit ke apa ke. Who doesnt? Tapi yg aku tak paham org yg tak kenal tak ape suddenly bash kaw2. Motif??? Dan aku boleh conclude kan org2 macam ni mempunyai sifat hasad dengki yg tinggi dan inferiority complex. Dia takde dan itu merupakan sesuatu yg dia nak dalam hidup tapi tak dapat. Dan sebagai akibat bila orang ada dia kutuk kaw2. So pathetic. Hello, daripada kita mengutuk apa kata kita memperbaiki hidup kita. so that at least setaraf. Bagi aku lah kan aku akan berusaha bersungguh2 jd aku akan dpt achieve my life goals. Aku ada fre friends yg macam tu. Aku jenis yg akan push diri aku to the highest limit. Macam ada sesetengah kawan aku terlalu berada di zon selesa so lantak kome lah disitu. Life korang bukan life aku. tapi bila part aku ada suara sumbang konon bagi nasihat oh kerja tu jgn sampai mengabaikan suami. hello? ko duduk dgn aku ke ko tau suami aku terabai?aku selamber je jawab " Hahahaha.. xde makna nya terabai layanan first class lagi uolss " haa gitu jawab dia. Kita harus handle benda ni dgn hati yg tenang n positive jawab pun sempoi gitu je so dia pnya target kengkonon nak sakit kan hati kita tak terlaksana. Org macam ni mmg nak kene buat macam tu. tunjukkan yg kita tak terkesan dgn statement diorang sbb kalau kita melayan lagi dorang akan bersorak gembira dan menjadikan kita sama je level dgn diorang. ada lagi, di dektu mmg suka pinjam duit org n lambat2 bayar fine. pastu dulu penah pakai tudung pastu bukak balik fine. tapi aku tak penah nak straight kat muka kau cakap kenapa kau haramjadah sangat mcm tu. sbb aku pun tau aku tak pakai tudung lagi. and aku tak judgemental pun not even a little. berkata2 dalam hati tu mungkin ada sbb ye kita manusia tapi tak sampai niat nak sound tepek ibarat memalukan dia. kalau nak dh lama aku buat. aku tak penah cakap apa pun but yeah dalam social media aku share 30% apa yg berlaku dalam hidup aku. read: only 30 % OK!! Pun dh boleh cakap aku ni riak lah apa lah but still aku handle situation tu calm. setakat pegi vacation domestic je diknon tapi cara gambar tu diambik mungkin nampak mcm obersee kot gamak nya. terus statement jealousy. Homaiiii manusia manusia. dalam ig aku banyak kawan2 aku yg lain post gambau obersee bagai. aku ok je n aku tanamlan cita2 one day aku mesti sampai jugak kat situ. dia tak tahu aku slalu bercuti sbb ticket free dari taun2 lepas company aku bagi aku bayar bawah 100 rm je. hotel kite duduk budget hotel. certain destination aku masak. kita commute naik train naik bus apa ke ko nak sound jealous mcm tu.Just because ko tak dpt nak pegi selalu jgn let yr anger to urself yg tak dpt pegi kat orang lain. Sebab tu Tuhan tak bagi kai rezeki tu. Sbb hati tu busuk.Last2 org macam ni harus di block je.Takyah kasi dia nampak apa2. So funny. Now aku memahami perasaan Rozita Che wan. gittuuuu

courtesy dari instagram yg aku cari hashtag #jealousy

Day 2 Kota Kinabalu ~~

the day two bangun lewat sikit so g melawat kat kedai kopi kartini no 58 jalan pantai /jalan lima. Kedai corner lot warna kuning berdepan or berseblahan dengan Majlis pembandaran KK. Ni kedai fav tok jib n tun abdullah based on blog lain yang aku baca. Kita beli  goreng pusang still boleh dapat rm 1(sgd 0.35)  for 6 pieces. 

wah wah wahh ini sangat murrrrrahhhh!!

Later on kita the food hunting at little italy famous piza in kk.We ordered puzza carnivora alot of meats 9 inch pizza for 22.90 rm n freeze squeeze lemonade large 10.90 so total we paid rm 38.90( 14 sgd)

Muka orang stress nak makan pizza hehe

Then since hubby peminat tegar bola and every destination mesti pg local stadium so here we go kita pegi Stadium Likas snap snap off here we go ambik gambauuu la pak don sampai lebamm

Tengok tu bukan main lagi memang peminat bola yg tegarrrr

Then pegi Masjib terapung sembahyang and ambik gambar. along the way from Stadium Likas, the view is breathtaking indeed.

jalan2 we decide to lepak at karambunai nexus private beach. but hampa it is not like last time. not well maintain i guess pkus hazy weather so the sea is not that breezy enough.Konon konon nak tengok sunset dekat karambunai tapi disebabkan cuaca jerebu jd lupakan lah tak nampak pun sunset nya. Plan to go to gayang seafood or salut seafood but still early so along the road ada orang jual lokan bakar , air kelapa dan jugak puding kelapa.so singgah sbb ada blogger recomend jugak to try the  lokan bakar rm7 puding kelapa rm 5 and air kelapa rm 3 so total rm 15(5 sgd) we proceed our journey to one borneo hypermall one of the largest in borneo. But actually in kl or singapore we have lots more of bigger shopping mall like klcc, pavillion, midvalley, IOI city mall and  Takashimaya, Paragon and so fourth. sempat shopping few baju at hnm sbb got sales. burn ard 260rm(90sgd)for 6 items it is damn cheap.so after wasting our time at One borneo Hypermall we drove to Salut seafood first. it surprised me when the food the sell quite overprice compared to the last time i was in kk. same goes to Gayang too as I couldnt get my Sabah vege at salut so i was then went to Gayang. Gayang slightly cheaper than Salut but still overpriced to me. I prefer the one at Dataran Todak so me and hubsy rather drive back to KK town to have our dinner. It was really frustrated because last time when i ate at Gayang I paid ard rm 80(sgd 28) for half kilo of prawn, 2 crabs, a fish and a plate of sabah vege which can be consumed by four pax the taste is ok but i just dont want to spend so much for something that i used to get for a cheaper price. blame gst for this as peniaga betul2 kaut baik punya untung.It is not about being calculative but i just want to enjoy a good food with  affordable price since I know that KK is well known as a seafood galore where u can get it in cheaper price. I have been eating seafood in Penang, Johor , KK , KL and Kuching and i think KCH offers the best deals ever at Top spot centre.so finally kita pegi kat Dataran Todak balik makan kat satu kedai ni betul2 penghujung kat pasar besar meaning disebelah hujung satu lagi since semalam anjung qaseh adinda pun the opposite hujung. the price not so bad rm 25 for half kilo, rm 8 sepinggan sayur ketam rm 33 sekilo and ikan 30 sekilo. mmg agak murah tapiiiii, rasa macam ok ok so and so jer.. boleh la kalau lapar tapi kalau nak ulang balik i think its a no for me. still gayang actually sedap cuma for the price i still prefer kuching seafood cooking style or maybe penang worth the price. even yesterday one even better cuma tak up according to my taste bud.Even thien thien restaurant cook mmg betul2 chinese style walaupun we all setakat makan sayur je sbb udang tak kunjung tiba. so esok nya kita nak pg kundasang cattle farm n rumah terbalik kk. n paginya nak pegi ke kedai kopi kak tini lagi untuk merasa the famous sabah punya nasi kuning sebab tadi time beli goreng pisang pakcik tu cakap nasi kuning cuma ada pagi je seawal 6 pagi dah start jual and oh ya kenapa seawal tu diorang bukak business because kat sini siang nya cepat. Pkl 5.50 am - 6 am agaknya dah sunrise. so total bayaran yang dikenakan kat kita for this seafood is rm 78( sgd 26) for the price ok lah kan dapat makan ketam, ikan siakap, udang n sayur cuma i hope they can improvised the way they cooked the dish. ok i would like to call it a day, balik hotel tgk tv then zzzzzz.. wait for the next entry ya.. muahss

Day 1 Kota Kinabalu Sabah

Huhu kelassss ko dik non dah mcm entry lapuk plak.. anyway ni utk hari pertama ni sbb kalau tak buat mesti alasssshhh angat rs dia..

07.25 am-morning take flight from JHB to KK flight ticket rm 50 sorang pegi balik bayar airport tax je sbb dapat special price.Arrived kk ard 9.30 quite awal sebab janji dgn kereta sewa En Sharil dalam pukul 10 am. So kita tukar duit then just nice kereta sampai kat luar arrival hall. Since travelling berdua we decided to take kancil manual sbb malas nak ambik kete mahal because satu KK ni kecik je jalan dia so bukan high way mcm kat semenanjung so Kancil will just do. Kalau anak sorang still ok lagi pakai kancil ni tapi anak ramai I suggest ambik kete besar. Only rm 60(20sgd) per day takde deposit. Dah nama pun kancik agak2 la keluaran zaman bertahun dah jd condition tak lah vasss cuma kalau jenis yg bersyukur and tak cerewet n sempoi so this is one of the best option that i can suggest. Dia pun ada kete lain like viva so i rasa viva agak baru and harga pun vary dgn types of kereta. En Shahril anta kat airport, comel je org nye pakai cermin mata and very peramah. Ahkak pun speaking Sabah bah sama dia sebab dulu aku pernah bah tu tinggal sinik. Hehe.We ambik 3 days 180(60 sgd)malas nak ambik mahal sbb only want to move from one point to point n i penah stay kk for almost 1 yr based in kk. so i tau jalan kat kk quite well.  So ni no tepon En Shahril +60195398312. We drive to my hse rent at area lok kawi jalan kat area terminal 1 n t1 mmg dah expanded jd panjang. makan lunch kat thien2 according to other blog it is halal n mmg banyak org muslim family pakai tudung makan kat situ. however takde halal certicate but we only makan nasi n two vege which is pucuk manis n pak choy sos tiram. ada kejadian yg kureng best sbb hubby order udang n mayb sbb waitress tu sabahan n macam tak paham sangat sudahnya udang tak kunjung tiba. a bit frustrated sbb hubby nak makan udang takde n i nak makan sabah vege pun xde. huwa. total damage rm 28(9.80 sgd) balik n check in hotel we stay eden 54 review banyak best n dalam dia boutique hotel enterior lawa. worth the price semalam 47 sgd( rm 140) . kita jalan isi minyak rm 38(13 sgd) kasi full tank. so balik hotel take a nap then wake up decide jalan2 beli jajan at sebelah pasar ikan kering yg a must which is kuih cincin for mom in law n my mum. kuih cincin total 5 pack rm 10 n the other one yg different sikit two packs for 8 rm. beli ikan bilis sepaket rm 13, udang kering rm 14, sotong kering two pack for rm 15 n bacan sabah rm 10. pg pasar tamu kat belakang beli cili giling pedas kk rm 4 sebotol letak kicap makan dgn ikan goreng panas2 nyum2. jalan depan sikit beli colagen for mak mertua n my mum murah sekilo dua packet for rm 15. jalan2 pg lepak jesselton point ambik gambar lalu suria sabah. kk air mcm dh keruh tak biru unlike the past 6 yrs the last time i was in kk. polution n org buah sampah sekati. dinner we eat at anjung qaseh adinda tepi hyatt kedai betul2 berdepan seremban seafood restoran n tugu ikan todak dataran todak.tapi dikuatira tak halal kat seremban seafood tu sbb ada served beer. overall at tanjung qaseh adinda the taste ok la not that bad n not that good. ok la utk trial sbb i penah makan the better seafood with cheaper price. kita order ikan kerapu stim halia( rm 16/5.50 sgd)sayur pucuk manis 8 rmtelur(recommended) sotong goreng tepung(15em /5 sgd) n udang galah cili ( rm 40/sgd 14)not really my cup of tea) kelapa muda total 98 rm(33 sgd). jalan2 pasar malam sebelah meriedien tapi nothing capture my eyes. call mum in law altanya ckp tak si dia suh tambah dua colagen rm 15 ikan bilis 13 rm sotong total 35rm. balik ronda2 kampung air just road behind le meridian ada pasar malam near kg air taxi stand. i buy pearl earing tawar dari rm 15 dapat rm 0 n butang kurung stud for hubby baju melayu rm 5. nearby ada massage centre borneo jesselton location tingkat satu berdekatan dgn kfc kampung air. kalau tak sure tanya penduduk very cheap kita dpt promotion price rm 30( sgd 10 wow!) one hr. the cheapest in malaysia so far. sbb tempat yg slalu massage kaki at my hse area nilai 38 per hr. masseur pilipino sbb kat kk mostly filipino. tepi grand M hotel dekat sebalh kedai 4d.

ni sayur pucuk manis kat sarawak panggil cangkuk manis masak telur hmmmm dap dapo i loike berlemak je rs dia.

sitong goreng tepung

ikan steam halia

udang chilli

seafood galore

teringin apam balik kertas yg nipis krap krup crunchy

massage selepas seharian kita merayap

bagi aku sangat murah untuk kawasan KK n berdekatan dengan KFC kampung. 

So ini sajalah untuk hari pertama di KK ada 5 hari lagi nak hadap. Harap bertabah lah ye hahahahah. till then babai.

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