Deko hari raya

Huh lama nya blog bersawangansss... hok aloh siapa je yg baca kan ntah2 takde siapa pun yang baca blog sendu nan hado nih...  aku ni ada sejenis penyakit kalau raya je mesti ada barang baru.. batu ada semangat sikit walaupun murah. gitu kekdahnyaaa.. dah takmo cakap banyak kita tgk gambau yg adooo

ruang tamu 

romantik sikit fefeeling gitu

belah ni takde apa yang berubah sangat.. ubah sikit je susun atur

dapur yang bertema kafe hipsturrrrr lah sangat...

aku banyak benda aim nak buat untuk rumah ni.. tapi pelan2 kita kayuh... sikit lagi tu... Insha Allah so far dah lebih cukup dari selesa dah tu... :))))

barang baru untuk rumah baru

sejak kerja kat lion city ni rezeki boleh dikatakan alhamdulillah. sbb tu boleh la sikit2 beli apa yg di nak untuk terezza cloud 40 ni. aku mmg aim dining chairs , ottoman dan juga cermin. n banyak lagi la sbb diikutkan kalau pasal rumah ni mana pernah habis kan.. tapi so far rumah kami dh penuh jugak la.. dah serupa rumah yang cukup selesa untuk aku. apa org lain nak cakap aku tak peduli sbb org lain tak tahu perit jerih yg aku lalui sepanjang aku bawak diri. #shutupifyoudontpaymybills gittu... malas nak layan org negative yg tak pernah nak happy dengan achievement kita tu so naik layankan je gambar my new toys..

ottoman yg bagi aku harga agak murah dan happy sangat akhirnya aku dpt apa yg aku nak..

kerusi makan idaman hati... genap lah 8  kerusi makan ku ini..

aku dah start gatal nak tukar concept rumah aku tu. aku macam nak putih n modern europe concept yg ada waimscotting... tapi kene tggu jugak so bertabah ajelah untuk the next 3 yrs sbb rumah tu dh dua kali raya kami kat sana.. so takyah membazir so every 5 years kita bagi new face kat dia.. aku betul2 suka dgn rumah mak nani rostam iaitu mak nya si hanis zalikha. dulu pun aku terinsipirasi dengan rumah dia sebelum ni. n dia ubah rumah dia sikit2 gunakan creativity n lesser cost. dan dia tau mcm mana nak cari lubang benda murah lepas tu dia deko jd cantik.. aku mayb nak tukar langsir tapi tak tau nak design macam mana.. aku mcm nak kain warna grey gelap lepas tu sarung bantal semua pun kehitaman grey gelap.. jd ubah sikit lah bagi fresh kat rumah tu. anyway sampai ni jelah aku merepek panjang hahahah.. aku nak cuci mata tengok design rumah..

when i give u another chance..

means u must use it carefully. dont mess it and dont try to trigger the switch.. u know how much i hate and love u at the same time.. 

when i said i forgive u...

means... a bundle of lavish gift, extra attention and luxurious holiday... so it will be equally fair and square. if not u might want to be in the never ending war... :)

Mix feeling

I dunno how to describe but i just want to walk away from this life. I cannot trust anymore so it will be no use at all. What is love without the trust? I will just follow the flow where the steps will lead me to. 

drowning...

 So many things that i would achieve in life. But i always belief The Almighty had a better plan for me. Maybe if i proceed with the other way, i would not have what i have today. I might be working somewhere in middle east but i may not have a savings like what i already had today. Tell me about the temptations and all the luxury goods temptation. Like what i always told myself "its a sin if im not buying it" lol! i dont know if that phrase even really exist in real life situation.

This will be a good year to generate more income to those working abroad as the myr currency is really low and if u change the money u will get more. I try my best not to fall into any of the temptations because i know all of that always can wait. I wanted to lead a very simple life. read:not stuck with any financial loan, have ample savings for rainy days and can do and can eat what i want  in life.I dont want to be like certain people , flashing their branded goods at all times but in reality no savings no nothing but debt. its not that i never have any indeed im a big fan of louis vuitton, dior and burberry but i spend wisely. I always bought those from outlets shopping spree whereby the markdown of the price is alottt! except for lv hahahah i need to save some money for it. i cannot digest when people want to borrow others money just because they want to fullfill what they want in life. come on. hey! if others can save the money and spend wisely why cant you. people already gave you all the priviledges.U cannot depends on people's courtesy at all times. what i noticed  this kind of people always talk bad about others when people never fulfilled what they want. ey hello!!? thats their money not yours and they are also burden with their financial problem. i once asked this lady, "if u re in their shoes can you do the same? " dangggggg she cant answer me and her facial expression changed. well, you should place yourselves in other's condition then u will be able to understand people.yes that person might be filthy rich to your eyes but they might want to save the money or they might have a lot of commitments. the money is mean for themselves its not for u. 

Anyway, there s alot of things going on in my life that i cannot spill it here. im literrally stucked here forever. i always become the punching bag, a saviour when other's in need and tossed me in the bin when they re not in need. Morale of the story, dont sacrifice so much to others , they will not appreaciate it but they will talk bad about you instead. especially families. 

the fallen

i just cant trust anyone anymore.one by one betray my trust. 

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Xxxxxxxx

i just cant trust anymore.